From point A to point B

Well, I’m back at work after a full week off for Christmas. Really enjoyed it. Nik got me some nice things. A wireless laser mouse that I’ve been wanting for months. A new hoodie. Anight out without the baby. And her presents went over well too. She loved the necklace. Gameboy Tetris was lukewarm. Will and Grace Season 5 was killer. And the knife and the cutting boards were awesome. All in all, I’d say it was a rousing success. We spent a lot of money, but we showed her sister and her sister’s friend a good time and we now have more great Seattle memories.

So I’m back at work, and I am thankful to have a job. It’s not that I have any new reason to be especially thankful. I didn’t almost lose my job. I didn’t see anyone lose their job. I didn’t see someone worse off than myself (…if that person exists!!!!). No. It wasn’t any of these things. It was a general realization that comes with thought. Over the holidays I had time to think about the situation I am in and reflect. I have a relatively low stress job where my work may not be vital, but I contribute in my own way. I may be guilty of under achieving (Nikki calls this the “15 pieces of flare” syndrome) at times, but for the most part, I do what is asked of to the best of my ability. I am compensated accordingly, and I shouldn’t expect to be rewarded for anything I haven’t done.

All this being said, I do feel like I would be more fulfilled doing something else. Maybe not a different company. Maybe so. Maybe not a different job role. Maybe so. But I do know I would love to be more hands on. I also know I would love to keep working in the tech industry no matter who I work for. And I also know that ultimately I want to work for myself. I want to set my own hours, work as little as possible and maintain a comfortable lifestyle, control my future and fulfill all my creative and familial endeavors. I realize this sounds like the ravings of either a madman or a man on the brink of retirement. But in actuality, I think these are the wishful thoughts of a 24 year old recent grad who knows there is more to life than “9 to 5”, more to life than help the company meet its bottom line, more to life than “help only you and yours”. Nikki would say I’m being “too vague”. I would say I spelled the entire story out just how I want it. I am at point A. I want to be at point B. The hard part is the middle. How do I make this happen? When will I have accomplished the objective? Who will help me get there? Is this best for my family? Am I nuts? All this will be fleshed out along the journey. Let’s just say for now that I really hope I make it to see the corporate bonus for my company in September. After that…..who knows? More to come as I find more out about myself and about the opportunities the world provides those who try.